Wednesday, February 15, 2012

I Will Always Love You


I was working earlier while listening to the late WhitneyHouston’s “I Will Always Love You” and it hit me—this is my personal theme song for all of those whom I’ve had to cut off in my life.  A few of them, I was thrilled to cut off; they had certainly shown their true colours to me.  Others, had to be cut from me, or torn, like alcohol has to be torn from the needy hands of an alcoholic.  But thankfully, I was strong enough to do the tearing myself.

Now I’ve never been physically abused or—to my knowledge—slandered by any of these people.  But they were toxic relationships nonetheless.  Praise God for true friends, and removal from certain situations which allowed me to see and understand the detrimental relationships in my life.  And these weren’t people whom I had love-hate relationships with.  No.  They were those I considered myself closest to.  But it was not healthy. 

These were people I confided my deepest secrets and most tender thoughts to.  These were people I fought for, people that I truly loved.  But alas, love is a two-way door.  And after a while, if that door isn’t swinging both ways, it’s time to move on. 

Sometimes, God places or allows people to be in our lives for a season and we must be aware of when that season ends.  I know that I’ve gained much in your company and I wouldn’t be the woman I am today without having you in my life.  Thank you.  And if God would bring you into my life again in the future, I welcome it.  

I wish you nothing but God’s absolute best.  I pray that God would allow you each to achieve your respective destinies and gain the freedom in so many areas of life that you desperately need.  I truly love you, truly.

It’s hard for me to say good-bye without knowing what words to use.  I admit, I was afraid and put it off too long to say something and instead chose silence.  I hope this message helps.  And I pray that one day we can sit down together, apologize, and speak openly and lovingly about this.  I know for some of you, I am frankly not ready for that and do not know when I will be.  For those of you who’ve hurt me intentionally or unintentionally, I forgive you; I release you. 


Please accept this song as one from my heart to yours.

Good-bye.

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